♥ Sunday, January 31, 2010
BOoo !Im boredd .Watching bleach till now ~Wanted to go out ~Wanted to play basketball ._.Wanted to go slack . ~LOLWaiting for replys ~Let see how ~Im tired D:Later then post (:Ciaoo ~
♥ Saturday, January 30, 2010
Just came back from shopping! My leg damn pain okay! Keep chase bus -.- Im been thinking and thinking . How can so you easy just forget everything . o-o Maybe you dont feel any hurt .But to me . After so many months its really hurt alot . Haha who care . You wont know my blog . Even if know you also wont bother to read it . Just only for me to read ~ Why cant we be friends .Why all relationship once ends . Jiu cant be friend ? Haiz . What am i thinking sia . You already forget me le . Whatever ~ Wont be trusting any promises , anyone anymore .Always being hurt after trusting so much . Im just a idiot . Which dont belong to this world .Sometime i keep asking myself . Why last time i must accept you . Why cant we just be friends . If i didnt accept you ,We still can continue be friend . Not like now . Treat me as a enemy like that . Haiz . But i never regret of loving you .~ Thanks for loving me , caring me , doting me so much in those 3oo days 1 hour .Hope you know the 3oo days 1 hour . Thank you . imy
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Suddenly i feel like ~ Dont know how to say . ~Just read my last time post . 2nd time had this feeling . haha Who care. Even if he didnt come back . I also cant do anything ~( someone told me this .)If you love a person , you must try to let go . But let go didnt mean give up ! As long as he happy I will be happy too . I try ._.haha thats all bah .
♥ Friday, January 29, 2010
Im no longer in your memories anymore ~You throw me out of your memories .You leave me without any reason ~The day has come .Now you're treating me like a stranger .I only can see the back of you ~ .Trying to be myself back~Its harddd Hoping that i could fly to the stars ~Everyday dont go school ~Just at night find a place to see the sky ~Everything is just a lie ~No longer believe in true love anymore~Had enough of everything . Im tired . I dont wanna get hurt anymore~ I dont want people blame things on me without any reason anymore~Just be a single will do ~Forever single . imissyou~
a smile from you
Is the best thing that
I wanted to see ~
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Had fun with friends yesterday . Thanks uh (: Im stressing arhh~Just reach home from downstair ~Yeah later 6 plus going to _ _ _ _ _ house . To pass the present ~Hope that wont see him uh ._. Long time never exercise le ._.Play abit basketball jiu whole leg pain omg~~Now damn pain larr . Cannot even walk hao lai D:Let see when still can go play ._.I feel like fun LOL! when playing . Can forget everything . But when never play everything jiu back in my mind ~Haiz . . Your look turn weird when you see me~Is it so hard for you to smile ? o-o?Who care . You just wont smile to me anymore . This year 1st time haha . So weird ~I think you already forget everything bah . haha . Forget it .
Since you choose to forget . ~
Im still stressing D:I wanna keep those happy days in memories ~ Thats all ~ iloveyou ♥
smile more~
Stay happy .
♥ Sunday, January 24, 2010
7 days without you . I really miss you badly ): I always feel like crying whenever i cant see you . What can i do ~Then you can come back D: My mind going to burst ~Its really hard . Now i never listen songs le ~I cant listen cause when i on songs . My tears will slowly roll down ~No matter how long i will still continue to wait you . Cause i only love you . You're my last guy . I mean it . ~ 53669.746.5264.93I can wait you forever . i miss you alot . ~
♥ Saturday, January 23, 2010
6 days without you . Wondering what're you doing ~I miss your voice ~I miss your face ~ I miss your warmest hand Its hard D: Wondering can we celebrate valentine together ? Is there still any chance ? I wanted to see you again . Wanted to be with you again . Wanted to stay in your heart again .All i can say is i love you ! And i will wait for you ! Forever ~
14 more days ~
I think you should know what date it is bah .
Hoping that you could talk to me one day .
My beloved boy . i miss you ~badly !
♥ Friday, January 22, 2010
5 days without you ~I wish to hear your voice again ~I wish that you can smile to me again ~I wish that you can pat my head with your hands again ~I wish that you can protect me whenever i need you again ~I wish that you can make me smile again ~I know you always want to make me smile , I just wont smile . So sorry ): Everything that i do , im so regretted now ~ How i wish that we can restart ~I know my mistakes le and i wont do it againBut is there still got any chance ~It seem that you look happy without me . ~Are you really happy ? But will the day come ? The day you be with me again ?The day you say i love you again ? ~ Maybe it will take 1 week ? 1 month ? 1 year ? Or even till the day im gone ? who know? ~I feel so regret ~How i wish that i could slash myself ~But i think its no use . It will shorten my life only . So i rather do things that can make me suffer ~ When i see you , your face will always looks so angry . Izzit you dont want to see me ? My tears always going to rush down . But i hold it . No matter how painful my heart was . I just cant cry .I wont cry infront of you anymore . I know this will make you more angry if i cry . When ~Can you talk to me again ~I will wait ~ No matter it take 1 week ? 1 month ? 1 year ? or even till the day im gone . Or no matter what you did . I also will wait . No one can stop me of waiting ~~Can we celebrate valentine day ? Last year we dont have the chance to celebrate .Or maybe this year also the same ? no chance le~?You might celebrate with others right ? Is there still anymore chance ? For you to love me again ? For you to be with me again ? boy
i miss you badly~
5 days ~I just cant do anything well . I cant sleep well . ~Didnt go school for today as i having headache and my body totally no strength at all ~Haiz . Its painful ~Can i see you in school on monday again ? Your course work have started le ~All the best to you~I will always support you ~Jiayou .
I hate being alone ~
But everyone is just keep on leaving me alone ~
I wish to tell everything to a friend .
But i dont think it can make a secret ~
I dont want things get worst ~So i rather keep it to myself ~
No one will understand . ~
I try to smile .
But i keep on see your face so angry .
I feel so ~
regret~
Sorry .
Tick tock hear my life pass by
I can't erase and I can't rewind
Of all the things I regret the most I do...
Wish I'd spent more time with you~
♥ Thursday, January 21, 2010
4 days without you . Its feel like ~ Haiz i dont know how to said Its like my mind is all blank . Only you appear ~ See how long i can take it ....Without eating ~ Haha . ~As like i said , This is for punishing myself . So dont blame anyone . Its my fault . Sometime i really feel like sms-ing you , talk to you . But think dao you wont reply or will ignore . My hearts feel so pain . 4 days le . I have been doing things alone . Such as walk school alone , walk home alone . Even in school also alone . Haiz . My class changing to 1st floor soon . No more chance to see him le . ~ As my CPA course work starts le . I will try my best uh . You too uh boy .Jiayous Hmm you know ma ?
I miss your hand pat-ing on my head .
Your smile .
Your voice .
Your laughter .
I miss everything of you .
I feel so regret of keep making you angry . ~
I promise you , i wont make my mistake over again .
No more . ~
Remember this .
I will wait for you .
Forever . . .
No matter how long , i will still wait .
Cause you're the one and only one that i love .
♥ Wednesday, January 20, 2010
3 days pass ~He still so cold to me As i still dont feel like eating anything . Once eat i will make myself to vomit out . Maybe you dont know . Even if you know , you wont care Cause this is the only way to punish myself .See you happy can le . I dont mind myself getting hurt (:Because i caused everything . So i must punish myself . I cause too much painfulness and sadness to your heart . So i must punish myself. Let see still got what i can make myself hurt .I said to wait for him . So no one can stop me . Wait for him till im dead ~ boy iloveyou .
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Let's hope that we can be together again .
I will wait for you to come back ♥
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I never felt nothing in the world like this beforeNow I'm missing you & I'm wishing that you would come back through my doorWhy did you have to go? You could have let me knowSo now I'm all alone, Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chanceWith you not around it's a little bit more than I can standAnd all my tears they keep running down my faceWhy did you turn away?So why does your pride make you run and hide?Are you that afraid of me? But I know it's a lie what you keep insideThis is not how you want it to beSo baby I will wait for youCause I don't know what else I can doDon't tell me I ran out of timeIf it takes the rest of my lifeBaby I will wait for youIf you think I'm fine it just ain't trueI really need you in my lifeNo matter what I have to do I'll wait for youIt's been a long time since you called meHow could you forget about meYou got me feeling crazy How can you walk away,Everything stays the sameI just can't do it babyWhat will it take to make you come backGirl I told you what it is & it just ain't like thatWhy can't you look at me, you're still in love with meDon't leave me crying.Baby why can't we just, just start over againGet it back to the way it wasIf you give me a chance I can love you rightBut your telling me it won't be enoughSo baby I will wait for youCause I don't know what else I can doDon't tell me I ran out of timeIf it takes the rest of my lifeBaby I will wait for youIf you think I'm fine it just ain't trueI really need you in my lifeNo matter what I have to do I'll wait for youSo why does your pride make you run & hideAre you that afraid of me?But I know it's a lie what you're keeping insideThat is not how you want it to beBaby I will wait for youBaby I will wait for youIf it's the last thing I doBaby I will wait for youCause I don't know what else I can doDon't tell me I ran out of timeIf it takes the rest of my lifeBaby I will wait for youIf you think I'm fine it just ain't trueI really need you in my lifeNo matter what I have to do I'll wait for youI'll Be Waiting.
boy i love you forever ♥~
No one can change my love for you .
♥ Tuesday, January 19, 2010
It been 2 days .I didnt eat and drink . Boy . I really miss your voice . I really want to talk to you . But im just useless . This is 2nd time i made you so angry . Now you cant forgive me anymore . . 1st time you so cold to me so long . Im feel like crying everyday . But no point . Crying cant solve anything . Maybe i will just wait for you ba . I promise this is that last time le no more of making you angry anymore . I wont keep make you feel irritating le . I wont take your phone without your permission anymore I wont give you this face le > -.-I promise ! Trust me the last time can ? ): Just the last time ):I can wait for you forever (: I said before from the day we being together . I dont want you to be alone ): I dont like you to be alone ): I want to pei ni forever ! I will be waiting for you to talk to me again . . Its really really very painful .So long didnt talk and smile to each other . Im really really regretted for what i have done . I have been thinking everyday and nights . I wont emo , run away anymore . No more . I will let you smile everyday ! I promise you . I wont be breaking this promise le ! Hope that you could forgive me . Take care . Nights . iloveyou .
♥ Monday, January 18, 2010
From the day we together .You promise to love me forever .But now your love to me is starting to fade away ~Are everything a lie from the start ? Are you just toying me from the start ? If no then why . You starts to dont care me anymore . . Leaving me all alone everyday . Why ? Why cant you forgive me ? Why cant you just trust in me one last time . Just one last chance . Trust me that i will change will you ? I know i keep on breaking promises But this is the last promise le . Im sure i wont break anymore .Really . I wont be so childish anymore . What can i do then you would believe in me 1 last time ):1 day le , you still didnt bother to talk to me .Or look at me once . My heart really is going to turns into broken pieces .Please stop telling me to give up . I know when should i give up . I dont mind myself getting hurt . But him . I dont wan him to get hurt anymore . I swear , i wont hurt him anymore . I will be a good girlfriend . i will act as what a girlfriend should do . . But would he give me the last chance to prove to him ? I will be waiting again ~My heart is only for him . J U S T F O R H I M . . . no one else can replace (: You can say i stupid or whatever .
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Still waiting for your msg ~
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Hope you read the message i sent you (:Hope that you could forgive me . Give me one last chance . Please ! I will slowly wait for you to reply (: Waiting for you to talk to me . Smile at me . ~
♥ Sunday, January 17, 2010
Hope from tomorrow onwards You can dont so cold to me . Please ~ I can dont do that again . I will control myself . Hold my tears .Wont suddenly emo then run away .Sorry i promise you this is the last time . No more . Really no more . Dont so cold to me please . .
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I have 3 question for you . Do you still love me ? Do you still trust me ? Do you still care me ? When can you answer those questions ?
♥ Saturday, January 16, 2010
I ruin his mood today . Im really is useless uh !Everything that he can do , i cant do . If i do he will always angry . Fine fine just blame me bah .Everything my fault . You can jealous why cant i ?I have emotion too you know ?Im also just a normal human leii .You really want see me break down then you happy izzt ?I always give way but will you ?Ask you let me see you like scare then walk away so fast . Hey please why cant you let me know ? Scare for what ?Or you didnt treat me as your girlfriend anymore ? Yeah just like i said . You wont trust me anymore . You just treat me like a stranger . You wont tell me the true anymore . Or maybe you wont care of me anymore . Maybe i die you also wont know . I dont know why . Im just a useless girlfriend bah . We cant have a place where only us . We cant have a happy day . Yeah always is me . everything is me . No more other le . If he dont want me just let it be . I also cannot do anything . Just MIA or be a mute girl everyday . Just let myself rot at home . Just now my heart really crack . As i see you keep like this . This is the 2nd time you hiding things from me . Or can i say everyday you have been hiding things from me ? Who know you msging who ? -.- Your msg always delete . Only you will know . Since the day we patch back . You keep hiding things from me . Maybe if i know , what can i do ? Jealous ? No use . You will angry again . Become my fault again . Yeahhhh you win . Everything is you win . I no have the strength to win . Blah . Whatever . Just keep on pretending that i dont know .And make my heart more weaker until one day ,Its really broke into pieces . And maybe you will be happy bahh . Cause i already not in your memories anymore . No need to everyday see dao me anymore . Hope that one day i can die which no one know (: You starts to dont reply my msg . You will just reply your friends ? Or other girls ? who knows . I know you starting to hate me more than you care me . Whatever . Just let me die better ! LET ME DIE ! ANYONE COME KILL ME OR WHATEVER ! JUST LET ME DIE . . . . you also wont care Cause im scare . Im sad . or whatever . You didnt even bother to care me . Yeah whatever . Nights . Boy . .
I wait for your msg .
Till you reply then i sleep .
Take care .
♥ Friday, January 15, 2010
Nobody knows who i really amI never felt this empty beforeAnd if i ever need someone to come alongWho's gonna comfort me and keep me strongo.o!~~ Nights (:iloveyou♥
boy
♥ Tuesday, January 12, 2010
My mind just cant stop thinking ~
Thinking ~
Thinking about . . . .
Haiz . .
Tears start to roll down ~
But i always hold my tear ~
I pray that ~
We can be like last time . .
But you said before .
You wont change for others
I think . .
Once you change ,
There's no way to let you change back le .
I really want to ask you ~
Are you still caring about me ?
Are you still worrying about me ?
Are your love still deep like last time ?
Why cant you reply my msg ?
Why wont you talk to me like last time ?
To you am i still your girlfriend ?
Are you still treating me as your girlfriend ?
Am i still in your heart ?
But always msg you , you jiu shi wont reply
If not jiu shi change subject ~
Haiz .
Now de you , its just like . .
Treat me as a stranger ? or what
I dont know ~
Whenever you need something then you will talks to me .
If not you will just do your own things ~
You no longer buy me presents ~
Just ask you to pei me go out you also wont ~
Just one day ~
Is it very hard ?
Can you find some time to spent with me ?
Can you ?
I was wondering .
I always go home alone at night .
You got worry about me ma ?
Whos know .
No one will know only you know ~
What if one day im gone .
Will you know ?
Will you bother to come out and find me ?
Will you bother to ask people where i am ?
Or just stay at home .
Angrying cause i never reply your msg or answer your calls ?
Blah who knows .
Everything is depends on you ~
no one can stop me from loving you .
even is you also the same .
i swear to love you until the day that im gone in this world .
iloveyouforever my beloved boy
♥ Monday, January 11, 2010
Yooooo Im back (:Humph ! Finally got time to post (: Morning wake up at 6am . Blah blah~Went to take bus then walk to his house . Waited him then go school . Lesson was quite okay . As usual our 1st lesson always eaten by the P -.-30mins gone~Haiz . . End school le . Walk home alone . . The sun is soooo hot -.- ~As when i was walking halfway ~ Nearly fainted -.-!? Everything is so blur . . Hmm I manage to walk home haha . Cause im always doing things alone . . Haha . Blah -.- When reaching home . Its start to rain -.- ? The rain is like shooting arrow ! LOL ?Its pain okay . . -.- Keep shoot my head T_TAnd yeah @~Finally reach home . . As my head is burning -.-No one bother to care . . No one bother to know . . Suddenly has a feeling .Starting to use to it for being alone ? I dont know why ~I only remember that you said before . I need to used to it being alone ~ o-o !? This words always stay in my hearts since you said this . ~.~ How can i forget this words ~ I really want to forget this words that you said ~ My head very pain ~ But my heart more pain . Whenever when im alone . No matter where ~ As long as im alone . My heart jiu starts cracking . . . Blah no one will know (: Sometime i really want you to sms me~ But you wont . I dont know why . Our spending time together is getting lesser and lesser ~Why ~~~ Just try to smile in school . . .Ciaooo (: Drink more water uh (:
iloveyouforever♥
♥ Monday, January 4, 2010
School day still the same ~Naggggggg all the way . I going sleep soon ..Tired sia ~Boy . I really hope that you can go school everyday . Study hard .Can you promise me ?
iloveyou♥
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